dippersbirthmark said: Cole St. Clair's character hit home. Especially that bathroom chapter, when he was thinking of escape, of suicide or hurting himself and turning into a wolf instead. It was such a strong moment for me. But moments like that, are they a testament of strength or weakness? Or something else?
Cole St. Clair has always been a very personal character for me to write: I was very much like him when I was in college, although most people didn’t know it. The thing about Cole St. Clair is that he’s so damn happy and active and buoyant and dynamic — except for the parts when he’s not. As a teen, I didn’t realize suicidal ideation could be like that. I had seen it in media, and it generally accompanied long-term depression or political scandal (Hollywood, in case you’re wondering, is not a great place to learn about psychology). It wasn’t this sneaky thing that happened when all the air went out of your sails, when you stopped moving, when you looked at the future and were bored by what you saw. It wasn’t something that happened to people with great families. It wasn’t something that happened to people who had plenty of other options.
But it was, and I tried, and I’m glad it didn’t work. Any of the times. I know Sinner looks like a flippant werewolf novel on the outside, and I hope that most people will read it as a sharp-edged love story. But on the inside of the novel is the most truthful depiction of a certain sort of self-harm that I could manage. Both its causes, its effects, and its cure. I tried to not glamorize or sugar coat it. But I also tried to not make it look dingy, because that’s when teens start thinking that they must be one-of-a-kind and broken to feel the way they do when their lives aren’t really that bad.
You asked if it was strength or weakness, and I don’t think it’s either. I think it’s just the way some folks are wired — a certain disregard for self-preservation. But it doesn’t have to be a weapon. It’s a kind of fearlessness, and if you figure it out, it can be a great thing.
I need Blue Lily, Lily Blue right the fuck now because this book series has completely taken over my life and all I want to think about is Blue and her Raven Boys. Why must I wait till October?
do you ever cry over blue and gansey at 1:30 in the morning because I do
I fucking do
insweetunrest said: the raven cycle pls
ok DOING THIS
- my “FOREVER” pairing: blue/the raven boys (that counts as a pairing yes) the raven boys/the raven boys, the raven boys/blue
- my “sometimes” pairing (if i’m in the mood): blue/adam but only book 1 tbh, he ruined it for himself by letting his completely allowed anger turn into nice guy rage @ blue not a good look my friend
- my “friends-with-benefits” pairing: gansey/ronan but i feel kinda dirty BECAUSE IT’S BASICALLY INCEST EXCEPT NOT IN A LITERAL FASCINATING WAY
- my “adele” pairing (“WE COULD HAVE HAD IT AAAAAALL”): gansey/adam omg pls come back to me ALSO NOAH/BLUE
- my “hate sex” pairing: blue/adam i guess idk
- my “working on it” pairing: noah/ronan
- my favorite threesome / poly ship: blue/the raven boys
- my platonic “their friendship is too precious to mess it up with romance” ship: noah/ronan GOD THEY ARE SO CUTE
- my “i love it but don’t want it to happen” pairing: kavinsky/ronan bc it’s hot but also kavinsky is a dick WHO TRIED TO KILL RONAN’S LITTLE BROTHER
- my “it started out crack but now it’s serious and i regret everything” pairing: gansey/his car
- my endgame pairing: blue/gansey, adam/ronan, noah/happiness
- my “across time and space they will always find each other” pairing: lmao blue/gansey like they pretty much meet in gansey’s afterlife SO
- my “settling for second choice” pairing: NONE OF THEM ARE SECOND CHOICE
- my “I don’t want to ship it but I do” pairing: this does not apply here goodbye